The weekend so far which included my day off yesterday too (yes courtesy of working boxing day) has not amounted to much other than watching the first season of Carnivale and the second season of Gossip Girl (yes I’m way behind).

I’ve also undone my healthy eating and devoured almost a whole chocolate cake amongst other things. My only defence is that I’m fighting a throat infection. My son has it full blown and his poor glands are up like angry red peppers. It’s not like him to be sick and he has exams to take on Monday so I really hope he’s over it by then. Poor lamb! Cuddles, chocolate and more cuddles have helped a lot – or was it the paracetamol he begged for at 6pm?

I had my day brightened up though by two of my American friends, Devyn Ashley and Phil Cruz. Both had some exciting news to share over the phone and I’m really excited about the prospect of seeing them in the summer. What would summer be without my annual visit to the States?  I can guarantee it will be fun if either of them have anything to do with it.

I’m ecstatic for Phil who’s perseverance have got him and his writing partner, James, the green light to shoot their newest movie,  Song of the Knife. There’s some big names involved and I’m turning cartwheels here because the script is amazing. I read it last year and it would have been a crying shame had they given up on the dream to get it shot.

Here’s the link if you’re interested and I’m sure it’s going to get updated soon as more names make their involvement official.  http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1220585/

Flights and accommodation state side are pretty reasonable right now but as I explained to Devyn I’m not the free agent that I was; i.e I have to actually get my holiday time agreed with my big boss. No more booking last minute and hopping on a plane. Boo. Still at least my new lifestyle gives me some structure. I’m not sure why that sounds like it’s a good thing, but I’ll think of a reason soon enough.

Tomorrow I’ve got to finish a report for work. But it’s not a chore as it’s about beauty brands and new season stuff  - a little bit like what I’ve written already this week in my blog but with numbers too! Yes, we’re going pie-chart-tastic baby! I am really loving Microsoft excel. Sad but true.

And did I mention I joined a dating site? Before some of my single male readers get slightly excited about the prospect of me opening the door to new suitors may I just state for the record that after three days on this site I now realise why I’m single. In fact I think/know my expectations are unrealistic and high – and also I’m very independent which doesn’t help one bit.  I don’t think the whole online dating thing is for me. In fact I don’t think dating in general is for me. It’s all a bit too technical.

I don’t care for marriage. I don’t care to have any more children. I want my career and to travel etc. I like to spend long periods of time alone. Yes, you’re right – I suck at being a girlfriend to anyone. But every now and again, just occasionally I dream of being the one with the picket fence,  (you know the one that doesn’t really exist but us dreamy Gals fool ourselves it does), the pot roast waiting for hubby when he gets home and of course the snuggles.

That was a bloody dream sequence right there! STOP!!!!!

I’m not completely without the urge to settle – but every time I think I’ve found someone really nice I realise he’s screwed up and needs time with a good therapist – that or he wants me to mother him which I remind myself is not the basis for a healthy relationship. Despair: must my bosoms be so welcoming for lonely, lost, screwed up men?

I’ll ponder that…

Verdict: I’m a selfish loner. Yep, and as I snuggle up on the sofa, playing mahjong, I feel a great sense of comfort I’ve publicly stated that.

Happy Sunday!

Diva Vx

P.S I only get this way in the winter – which is a lesson to all single girls – remember a boyfriend is not just for a season – in my case he’s not even for a week.