V past

Hello Vansters,

Yeah, so I was going through some of my earlier work and I found my very first porfolio.

This picture you see here was my first professional shoot. I got paid for it.

This was a print – no digital I don’t think back then. If there was no one used it that much.

I was that slim throughout my teens and very early 20′s – until I had my son.

Funny – I had more issues with my body when I was slimmer than I do now being bigger.

I don’t know how that works – or whether in my 30′s I just thought the first part of acceptance is to accept ‘you’ first.

I look nervous in these pictures and I was. Mind you there must be other pictures of me further down the line where I look nervous. Sometimes you need to get a feel for what they want. It takes a couple of minutes to adjust. Different photographers won’t give you a thing. Others will bark at you to pose a certain way.
I don’t mind being barked at – I guess it’s the actress in me. I like some direction to begin with – but just like an actress I don’t mind doing a little ‘improv’.

I wanted to share this picture. It makes me giggle. I really was that sweet and innocent. All the teen angst was brewing – ready to be unleashed at 16, when I discovered sex, drugs and rock n roll.

Also looking back – I don’t think these should ever been in black and white. No detail for the head dresses at all. Just my thoughts.

So, I’m getting my hair cut this week. I’m going to see my agent too, and I’m going to do some creative things. My soul feels like it needs an airing. Know what I mean?

V x